You know how sometimes you just close your eyes, jump off a cliff and hope for the best? No? Me either. And yet here I am doing exactly that. The day job is fascinating and all, but it really cuts in to my free time, and there’s so much more I want to do. Like write nonsense in my blog every day, and finish editing my book, as I will very presumptuously refer to it. Technically it hasn’t been published, but I never let minor details stand in the way of my rationalizations.
So I say goodbye to my firm on January 31, and move in to the exciting world of…free-falling I guess. There is a fine line between brave and stupid, and I may well have veered in to the wrong lane here. Let’s hope that light at the end of the tunnel isn’t a train.
I’m kind of melancholy. What child didn’t yearn to become a legal administrator one day? I couldn’t wait for the glamour and excitement of a fast paced (read: everything on fire at the same time), busy (read: 14 hour days) and challenging (read: politics and personalities) career. While it’s been more guts than glory, it’s certainly been, well, a good paying job and stuff. And of course completely rewarding and satisfying.
So I know what it’s like to chase a crazy dream and grab it by the horns. Who ever thought a middle class kid growing up in Northern Virginia could really make something of herself? Running with the rough gangs of 1970s Springfield; cruising around on my Schwinn and looking for trouble; anything could have happened.
But I clawed my way to the upper range of the middle, and then sort of the lower to mid range of the top, and here I find myself, at a crossroads. You know that whole expression “do what you love, and the money will follow?” That sure as hell better be more than a nice turn of phrase. I have passion, I have hidden talents (really well hidden), I have the enthusiasm and energy to start something new…and I have a mortgage.
The good news is I will have lots of time to focus on my blog. The bad news is it might get a little whinier, and I’ll still expect you to read every word. Stay tuned my friends, and remember tipping is much appreciated.